Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Mid-Semester

There are some days that I teach and I feel awesome, like I was meant to do it.  There are some days that I feel like I've crashed and burned and I'm pretty much the worse teacher ever.  I notice that I have more of the latter days toward the middle of the semester.  Today was one of those days.  And it really sucked because I was teaching about class status and identity and, well, that's the topic I research and care about.  There was just a weird vibe in the class and I talked about politics, something I rarely do.  But I was really fired up.  Sometimes that passion helps me teach, today it just made me flustered. 

I feel, on some level, that I'm having a tough time connecting with this particular class.  That's a bit weird since I've been teaching most of the students since June.  I'm starting to worry about making sure that I've given these students all the tools they are going to need out in the world.  I may be as anxious for their next steps as they are.

1 comment:

Mrs. V said...

You captured it so well. I have had similar feelings, and I especially loved your last two lines. At some points this year as students' stress built at busy times in the term, I have thought, "Why am I more stressed out for the students' assignments than I am for my own program?" It is interesting how their stress can transfer to me when I am able to keep stress about my own down.